on a continuous spree of conscious wanting, i keep on my subtle attacks to be noticed. it's ridiculous. i've already accepted the fact that we have no chance and yet here i am, actually pounding on the keys for another entry.
this must be one of the things that make life beautiful; to be able to experience pleasure that's forbidden and yet trying for more. ah, the excitement of the chase and the bitterness of defeat...these are the colors that paint my existence to its exuberant glow...i can only wonder how long before i can kiss the lips of sweet success...lol
in my seemingly asinine state, i have mastered the art of putting people off...it's really hilarious how one's actions can actually produce such end results which are exactly the opposite of one's motives! recently, i have consistently excelled in appalling people i would have wanted to be dear with.
it's true. sometimes we say the wrong things at the wrong time to the wrong people...and we expect everything to be alright...now im learning again, that i can really be an intense person, with utter disregard for reason or logic, sometimes i just need to put my point across, without even realizing we might be speaking different languages.
now that i'm sobering down, i think i'm probably just trying too hard anyway.
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