i've forgotten...

i have forgotten how it is to fall in love. tell me again? show me? make me remember...make me understand...it has been ages since...now it's so hard to believe i ever was. was i? ever? in love?

how could the ultimate human emotion seem so distant for me? a human...

how is it possible?

i heard once that one of the most important gifts that we have is memory. how one could just close his eyes and remember. remember how good life is,remember the people we laughed with, remember the moments that make us smile.

i remember people; friends, colleagues. i remember songs and some old jokes. i still sing 'em. i still laugh at 'em no matter how silly they are.

but i've forgotten how it is to be in love...and it puzzles me.

and right now i just need to put it out there. so i can laugh about it a year from now, who knows maybe sooner.

im done.

aiyo...

what the fuck...im still whining, not doing anything about it...im still caught in debt...im still a prisoner of my fears...