the learning continues. when we have nothing to lose yet we struggle to keep on, when smiling is a luxury and we can't spare a penny, when nothing makes sense at all, why do we let ourselves suffer?
my pronoun is unfair. i know it doesn't apply to us all. it's a coping mechanism, let me share my burden, even just for a while.
it doesn't get better. my days seem to get worse everyday. i've already cried my heart out, yet i i still feel like i'm the one in debt. i do my stuff and i do it well yet i get no appreciation. looks like i will be getting more pressure, because i'm good. the joke is definitely on me. it hurts like pain itself because i am aware and i allow it. but im not yet willing to confront my issues, i am still a son to my folks and a brother to my siblings.
i will keep on, til i break. i will try to make it easier on me in any possible way that i can get away with. i hope life will surprise me with a better option. oh God i hate my boss! i know i still have a lot to be thankful for, and yes i am very grateful. and if at the moment this really is the price, i will keep paying. just give me the courage to hold on. coz at the moment, there isn't any other thought in my mind but to scream the lines "i quit, i'm done, i won't take this anymore, this is over for me"
so the pain goes on...i will still take it, till it hurts no more.
