what???

second day at work...got a more open approach on things...was more than willing to learn the trade...was very enthusiastic on all matters concerning work...i was everything i wanted to be today...despite everything, i did what i had to do...

and when i got home...my nose bled!

i don't understand what it means. i try to cope, i am adapting...i started to work from 830 am, i left the office at 9pm...we don't have coffee breaks, they may even want lunch to be cut to half an hour...i degrade my communication skills, i put up with ludicrous grammar, i am even forced to cut my smoking...just to get by, i'm losing my sense of self...even if this is the price, i'm still willing to pay...

i do not understand why...

i just know that today, my nose bled...