Now what? A year...that's how long it took for you to carry out a plan that was made 2 years ago. Back in 2006 you agreed to move to a foreign land to earn more money. In 2007, you decided to move to a different site so you could "detach" yourself fromyour colleagues whom you started to form friendships with. It's now 2008. You are now in a foreign land. You have yet to land a job to earn more money but in retrospect, everything turned up well. You are where you wanted to be, 2 years ago.
Is it just the fact that you are still jobless that infuriates you? The fact that for quite some time now, well since april 19, you have been depending on your sister? The reality that without her, you would not know what to do?
Perhaps.
But I know I still have it easy and I'm very grateful. Spitting on my ego really doesn't compare to what others had to go through. I had to delay my flight to Singapore for 2 years because I wasn't willing to let the ego land. I was scared. I still am.
But I had to take the plunge. I wanted to. Convincing myself wasn't hard. I needed a change. And now that I gave up the comforts the ego provided, starting from scratch is just one consequence. I have been reduced. It bothers me, but I couldn't care less cause the wheels are in motion.
I set them.
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